Its not the memories of the
pain and loss that hurt so much
Memories of happier times
are what cost when things change
A memory of your smile cuts
like a knife through my soul
When I seek release and
escape it is not from the bad times
I'd run away if I could
evade the memories could stop remembering
But how do you do that when
all we are is the memories we have
Agony loses it's power over
time and time heals all wounds
What is left behind is the
memories of pleasent times and joy
These are what hurt for all
future times and I am unable to free myself
When the expectations are
unfulfilled the bitterness isn't in the present
A future without those
pleasent and happy times taints each memory
Reminders of what was and
can no longer be for whatever reason
The cry 'Death were is your
sting' fails utterly it is not loss that hurts most
The pain comes in doses
large and small and in an endless supply
Escape evasion distraction
leave me run from me hurt me is all the same
Amnesia a bitter sweet goal
held ever out of reach undesired but sought
When all you are is memories
of yesterday and dreams of tomorrow
What is left after pains
fade away and broken dreams forgot
All that is left are the
joys that can never be again but ever remembered
I long to forget to be free
of a future without I long avoid the joy that pains
One day or an infinite
future it is the same a happy memory will last
A memory that you have no
defense for an ambush lurking in the light
Every future joy may trigger
the trap and make me bleed inside
Past happiness making me
seek sadness now what about the future
