Stubborn

Stubborn

It is both my saviour and curse - I am stubborn
It has saved my life so many times I have lost count
Each and every achievement in my life it has been won for me
Stubborn from my first breath and my last held at bay

Every moment of pain endured - I am stubborn
I have never lost to despair no matter how often I'm downed by it
Snatching victor deftly from the jaws of defeat each time
Each victory of late a pyrrhic monument of pain extinguished by tears

I blindly keep seeking the way to go - I am stubborn 
Peace and succour I stubbornly reach out for regardless the flames
The scars of my life etched across my skin but the flame leaves none
A vision burn deep in my mind of better times and life

I wake knowing the pain to come - I am stubborn
I've stubbornly chased after dreams and the visions
I desperately wish to fail to stop to give up give in and end
I curse my stubbornness and cling to it knowing its loss is my end

Stubbornly I endure the pain knowing the pain to come
Each failure etched across my skin burning leaving no trace to see
A donkey endlessly chasing my carrot I keep striving exhausted
A blight upon my life that leaves victories and defeats indistinguishable

I am stubborn